You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Its been a long while since i've not blogged but this strong emotion in me which i have to look for somewhere to voice things out instead of telling anyone, and i though this is my perfect space to yell...


"ERIC I MISS YOU SO MUCH!"

I know i shouldn't have such thoughts but sometimes things are just there so voicing out to an empty space is better then spreading. Yes, it might be unfair to the him by my side now, but at least i'm not doing anything to hurt him... I still love and miss him too.

well, just thought might wanna look for somewhere to scream tt one sentence and i've done so... lets move on =)

I was just in the mood of packing my room for 2009 and looking through all the letters, notes, momentos and cards that I kept. Listening to the perfect FM Class 95 and reading through these stuff, it was just the perfect combination. And dear, deep from my heart, thank you for giving in to me for so long. Where ever time gonna bring us, if we ever meet again we should really have coffee someday.

I used to read and have happy tears but today as i was reading through and going through all the photos, yes i had have tears as well but there's only one thought, "move on". Regardless of how much memories and good times we have had, there's always something that will be there that cannot be erased. Even so i've learnt that love is suppose to be unconditional not being put down into papers and words.

With these last read, i finally realise that i'm ready to let it all go and dare to love, dare to try, look forward to life and there's always someone out there for me. I may have once been a bitch but had i not been a bitch, i wont have anything to learn from.

You will still be one of my great love, but i'm not gonna be afraid to create more memories.

Promises are just something to keep one calm, even vows can be broken what is promises? Perhaps come think of it what's most important is to have faith and trust between each other to really make things work. And communication will then play an important role.

I hope all these will be really be kept in my head!!

Lastly, Eric we've loved and lost. But losing u made me realise how much i really love u. It's always the losing that makes me realise the things that was hidden behind my clouded vision and this is one thing that i will be keeping in my head about. Taking things for granted has been too much of a bad attitude that i have and it will be changed for the better.

I dont hate u for anything yet i appreiciate that you have once walked through and play a part in my life. I will continue to walk this life and of course be stronger. Friends we shall be even if we can never be together again =)

Counting down to 2009.

This is the year i'm looking forward to with every single memories, the good and the bad be kept away and creating more memories that I should have. 2008 and every yr before has been kept into boxes and be kept away for good and never to be found.

A new year comes new resolutions, comes new objectives and goals. Though I dont remember mine this year, but trust me i've made more goals in life that i want to achieve then just taking things as it comes and goes.

Of course before the end of the good 2008, here are some people that i truly wish to send my gratitude to.

Thanks Eric, for guiding me for too long and now giving me the room to independent and strength. I've learnt alot with and without you. Without pain, there isn't love. And there's where i know there's actually love between us. But the pain didn't last so is our love. When we were together, I want you to be happy and now that we are not together, I still do want you to be happy as well. And truly i give the both of you my blessings. Maybe years down the road, when we think back about our little chapter of lifes, then we be laughing at how silly we were then maybe we could then catch up for coffee. Our chapter has ended for u and you have started a new one, while I'm writing mine on a different path and I'm very happy writing this chapter on my own. Sometimes things are just too unpredictable that things might never worked out as plans and no matter how many stuff were said that we can do or not do, at the end of the day emotions does all the talkings. Once again, truly, deeply thank you for guiding me for so long, teaching me alot of stuff that will be remembered by.

Thanks David, for that 1 sentence you said to Eric (if its not said by u then i'm even happier to have left) which made me stronger to walk out of this.

Thanks Elaine, for having to cope up with all my constant grumbling and whining and tantrum and talks about my problems yet always so patient to lift me up. Though we hardly talk and meet up, but girl, you play a important role in my life. You're like my aunt agony but i know, i cant depend on you to learn I've to think for myself and work out action and reactions fast before really doing it. I will brace myself and walk this 2008 through.

Thanks Tricia and girls, thanks for always being around the drinking session and making sure that i've been good and watching over me. I'm sorry that i made u girls worried for the longest time and it will never ever happened again. Dont give up on me yet because i know i'm walking back to the right track, so do wait for me till i get there!

Thanks Mum, Dad and Bros, you have been the most supportive familiy ever. Despite the late nights (early i should say since its only after sun rise that i'm at home) and not being home at times sometimes even consecutives night, you still be so understanding and made my my favourite soup. The days will end soon because like i told you, its just a phase where i put myself down and just needed to throw myself into the deep sea to survive. And i survive through and will be way stronger then anybody else.

Thanks for everyone and anyone that has always been there for me as well... Lets just hope 2009 will be a better year!

Till then, next year update again! =)

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!


Thank you all for your sweetest greeting and regards. Appreciate all as follows in random sequence...

Tricia
Joelle
Ferlyn
Zhong Wei
Benny
Ding Tao
Sebastian
Casey
Emily
Alicia
Elaine
Kalson
Louis
Dennis
Gavin
Jeremy
Spencer
Leo
Nicholas
Eric Tan
Rong Hui
Jose
Zhi Wei
Ah Long
Cavey
Sean
Benjamin
Serene
Peh Keow
Feng Zheng
Amanda
Dylan
Joanna
Angelia
Wilson
Kaisa
Christopher
TJ
Johnson
Juan
KS
Martin
Woon
Eugene
Bob
Kendra
Ling
Nadia
Jasper
Louis
Rellic
Sarah
Kelly
Marie
Sophie
Ian
David
and my dearest family members...

You guys really make my day and a very memorable birthday. I'm kinda lazy to update the pictures here, so if u have facebook, view my birthday celebration pics here!!
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/album.php?aid=89550&id=514566292&ref=mf

LOVE U GUYS!!!

p/s sorry if i miss out any of ur names!! =)

This entries is just gonna be photos and nothing else! Can't wait for my birthday!!



















Do i look alright in short hair? LOL!!

I just wanted to say and do something...


looks like it has been a longgg time since i posted my pictures... lets have a sneak preview of how i've been recently and defintely more to come!! =D



How do i look?? hee.. this is juz taken on random, more to comeee =D

Changes...

How much can one change from time to time? does a make over consider a change? does a change in environment consider a change? What about when it comes to being undecisiveness? (is there such word?)

Recently I had so much fun, joy, laughter and some girly time shopping, clubbing, dolling up myself until I forgot about my true self. How much longer will I bring back my old self or i actually forgotten where i left them and became someone else.

I miss my past from time to time, but then again i meet alot more people and see alot more then i could have and I do not regret that.

What till you see me and the changes (lets wait for tricia to upload my photos) then maybe tell me what do you think.

i felt really empty these days. What have i been up to? what have I been doing? I always wanted the kinda life that i used to have with him, but where can i find it now? maybe there are some good catch around me now but are there really good or just out to have fun? I had fun but always going back to an empty space with empty heart not achieving anything good at the end of the day.

I'm lost too, i don't know how to explain and what is all these about. Deep down somewhere i know this is not me and not where i want to be. I expect a drastic change in me, but is this how i should began with or to do?

Not expressive anymore, not being myself. I guess i should just post picture next time round!!

Good night all =)

Hey guys, just wanna let everyone knows that i'm good and i'm fine. Every thing is getting into places for me, every thing is pretty much going smoothly for me as well and i'm really happy about it!!

My birthday is coming pretty soon and actually i'm pretty much excited abt it this year as compared to any others, because ... ... hmm... I shall keep it a secret and for birthday blog update!

I'm also learning to have selective memory now and its a very good thing i've learnt for the past few weeks. Things that should not b e remember by is best to let it go and of course good things should keep it to heart.